Am i mad?

Everywhere i look, i see healthsci students. not in 10's , 100's but thousands...
thinking that anyone of these could take my spot in med, what the fuck is going through my mind..
haven't been on here in a long time, but i need release.
u ever heard of a dome? course u have. imagine this. sitting under an old oak tree on a summers day with
a gently breeze, swiftly gliding over the tip of your nose and through your hair. come on, close your eyes and just relax, you know u want to....
then suddenly, the wind stops...
now, reopen your eyes, what do u see?
look up, purple clouds take rise and surround you, encased under a massive dome in the sky. this dome isnt all too massive, about 400m in circumference.
your trapped.
now what?
do you want to stay trapped? or find a way out?
Now go, run. run in circles around the dome, look for a way out.
but what if..
what if there was no way out?
what if your trapped in this hazy purple environment, no way out...
what if you realise, its just you here...
what would you do?
keep looking for an exit? or find someone.. but wait...
what if... you have no one?
what if the only person in this world you had who was close to you, your saviour in times of need
was no longer living...
your stuck in this dome, no way out
and even if u were to, theres no one out there
waiting for you on the outside....
what do you do?
what would you do?
die on the inside?
or....
find someone else to replace your saviour...
welcome to my life, Permanent residency within  Ryans Dome, occupancy 1.
and will stay like that forever.
now, what can i do to kill time within this dome?
hmmmmm......